So many things in life are fragile:
nerves, eggshells, that set of Lladro figures needlepointing on
your great aunt’s mantlepiece. And family. Family, especially. I never realized
how much until mine began breaking. Tiny fault lines appearing on the faces of my parents,
aunts, uncles, myself. Small fissures at the hinges of mouths, the chalked, blue circumference
‘round eyes. From there – like Ozymandias – it all crumbles. Two thus far, have tumbled to the ground, with more to follow. Cracks in the foundation of the family tree, ever-widening, threatening the
center of the two grand titans of my youth I visited this week. They struggle against the fell.
One, gnarled roots lichened with dry rot, incapable of withstanding the gentlest breeze,
leans on the trunk of the other, stoic and strong, but tired. Oh-so tired. The detritus
of decline feathers their nest, clutter collecting on surfaces
like whiskers on unshaved faces, the efforts required to
clean, to clear, too much. Kleenex, coffee, yogurt
cups, cardboard
and pill boxes,
a cacophony of
alarms sounding
and resounding,
hour after hour,
chiming birdcall
begging a berry be
dropped
in a gullet,
infinitesimal
directional
notches
scored,
minutes
sliced, drop by
drop wedged
between
here and gone.
Soon and not long –
a blood-dimmed axe will fall, or tide will rise and uproot more fragile things in life, like nerves, eggshell, porcelain, and titans, strong and ancient and mortal as family
especially family.
