I’m tired. I’m so worn down.
Waking up at 5:30 AM and working nine hours a day at school, then throwing together sandwiches or quesadillas or crackers and pepperoni because it’s all we have time for before burning the rubber off my tires for the boys’ activities…
Monday: football and theater.
Tuesday: piano and football.
Thursday: dance and theater and football.
Friday: Friday Night football.
Saturday: any and all random responsibilities of the not regularly scheduled variety. But thankfully, my husband is here. The father of my sons. My go-to guy. He’s here to help on Saturdays.
And then Sundays. Salvation Day. Napping days. Because, y’all. I’m slap worn out.
And I see nothing but years and years and then more years of this insane schedule, multiplied.
Lordy, it makes me want to go curl up in a ball and stay there – which is how I used to cope with overwhelming stress, back before my boys and after my girls. After my girls were grown and my responsibilities were less, I would go to bed at 7 pm and not get up again for at least 12 hours. It gave me a recharge so I could maintain the course.
But I don’t have that luxury anymore. More than 6 hours of sleep is hard to come by.
And I know I’m throwing myself a pity party. I know I’ll be fine after a nice long Sunday afternoon nap and a glass or two of wine.
But I need to know: Am I the only one like me? (Well, probably the only one who’s 56 with twin 8 year-old boys and a football-coaching husband, but still…)
I know I’m not the only one burning candles at both ends and feeling frayed and frazzled with an FU filter threatening to fail.
So what do y’all do? How do you find inner peace when your energy has melted into a roiling thermonuclear core threatening to collapse and there’s really no end in sight? When doing less is absolutely not an option?
No, like, really.
How do you handle it?